Wow, these past four months have gone by so quickly! Next week brings my next round of scans. I have been "spoiled" all the times before this to be able to meet with my doctors immediately after my scans to get my results (when i say immediately, i mean i basically walk from the radiology dept (or nuclear med) right to their offices. ) This will be the first time I have to wait (1o days-yikes!) for my results. As much as I want to say I'm not worried at all, I know I must be on a subconsious level because something happens every time I near the scan date. My eyelashes start falling out. Other than during chemo, my eyelashes have never fallen out (besides the occasional stray like everyone else). Every time I near a scan date, all of my really long lashes fall out-with new ones right behind. It used to freak me out, but now it's like, oh, i guess my scans must be coming up. I also used to think that it happened coincidentally every 3 months due to some hormonal thing. but this time I had 4 months between scans and the falling out of the eyelashes did not start at the 3 month mark but rather waited til this week. Anyway, I digress. I feel pretty confident that everything's fine, but seeing what other people have gone through recently, it's hard to let your guard down completely. I mean, I'd be lying if I didn't think of my metastasis probability everyday. I think about it-I don't dwell on it. I can't-I have two beautiful daughters who need their mom :) I figure I will cross that bridge if I come to it. For now, my worries and prayers are reserved for other people. People who are fighting the same battle I have fought but have had a temporary set back.

For now, I only think about my scans when I see another fallen eyelash upon my cheek. So, pretty much everyday, multiple times per day. I just thank God that new ones are right behind them.